Numero Dos

Day two of blogging, and I already forgot my password...typical Magen.

I remember when I was much younger, my mother would get incredibly frustrated with us and go to a different room and scream. She didn't scream at us, or scream any words...she would just scream out of sheer frustration. I was never scared by these sudden outbursts since Lauren and I usually caused them...but I never quite understood them. Now, I completely understand why she was venting! Children are so incredibly frustrating. You love them as much as you are angered by them, and you experience such a crazy mix of emotions.

Before I had Addi, no one told me "hey, there are some days your are going to want to lock yourself in the bathroom and hope your kids don't find you." Don't get me wrong, I love my kids to death. I believe everyone knows that by now, but there are days when I don't know why God decided to test my patience like he has.

I have also learned that the more intellegent your child is, the more frustrating it can be to parent them. I made it a stead-fast rule that no one was allowed to use 'baby-talk' around Addi. Everyone was to speak to her as they would any other adult; therefore, Addi now speaks as an adult would speak. It is so hard to lie to her, or to make things up just to not have to deal with 'why, why, why,' because she will call me out every single time.

Typical Addi/Mommy conversation:

(sitting at the bank drive-through, trying to avoid getting a sucker because suckers=unecessary sugar)

Addi: ''mom, is she going to give me a sucker?''

Me: "no i don't think so, they don't have any today.''

Addi: ''why not?''

Me: ''uhm, well, the easter bunny took them all.''

Addi: ''no he didn't, it was already Easter.''

Me: ''he is preparing for next year.''

Addi: ''oh, hmmm...mom i don't think so.''

I always feel like I am being outsmarted by my two-year old! The worst is when I want to punish her, but I can't because what she did or said was so funny. I am too busy giggling or trying to hide my smile to actually consider a punishment.

Example:

Addi: ''where is freakin' Conner''

Me: (trying not to giggle) ''what did you just say''

Addi: ''i didn't say nothing''

Me: ''that was a double-negative, and you did in fact say something''

Addi: ''i said friggin' mom, i said friggin''

I'm apparently not stern enough to punish her in all needed circumstances. That is hard, but worse when I am trying not to laugh and I see Derrick trying not to laugh...that gets me everytime.

Kids are crazy, and they make their parents crazy. Parenthood is a wild ride. Maybe i'm just bi-polar, but i'm just speaking from personal experience. You never know what to expect from day to day, and that makes waking up every morning a tad bit scary and a little bit refreshing.

Oh, and a side note. I tell Addi every single day that she is either "so beautiful, talented, smart, or all three." Right before she went down for her nap today she came up to me nose-to-nose and whispered "mom, YOUR so beautiful." It literally made me squeal when she said that. She is wonderful!

I am raising two amazing children, who will grow up to be two amazing adults. I take my job very seriously!